Not even words could explain

Memories stuck in my heart that i can no longer see
yet all i can feel is its pain taking over me
all those good times and bad times and my many broken hearts
have made me into who i am today with my world shattered apart
i never understood even till this day what being alive truly meant
how could you be alive if deep inside you feel so dead
what would i take back if i had the chance to take back what i could
is it the matter of taking back what i want or taking back what i should
all those times that have hurt me so much
i wouldn't go back and try to prevent it from happening cause all i needed was my friends touch
crying tears as these words pour out my mouth
Ive kept it quiet for so long even though it was ringing in my heart so loud
when i was a little i never thought i would be so concerned about the things that today i am so worried about
i always thought my greatest concern would be not being able to get a candy every time i was out
i was never scared as to what tomorrow might bring
now a days i feel like my heart begins to break with a simple song that someone begins to sing
i don't even know what to do anymore
everyone and everything seems to be just be walking out of my life's door
the boy that i love so much is managing to show me that he doesn't care
then it brings me to tears when i talk to my best friend cause she then shows me that someone is there
i am living everyday as much as i can '
trying to imagine a great future maybe that is what i should begin to plan
i only have three years until i am out
on my own
until then i have to deal with the fake mouth runners that manage to so much affect my world
i have good times that i wish could have lasted forever
yet the bad times are all i ever manage to talk about and the good times hardly ever
if i could fix my broken heart after all this time i would
but for me to forget all that has happened i don't think that i could
the same thing will just happen over and over again
but at least at then end of all of it i will still have my one true friend
if it weren't for her i don't think that i could have made it this far
but with this girl in my life i have managed to make it the longest yard
hope ya ll like it that girl is (Jennifer of course)