Afraid of knowing im not alright

My tears are like crystals
So beautiful,yet so deadly
Putting up many walls
Because Im not ready

Not ready to talk
Not ready to listen
Shut the door, turn the lock
As my tears begin to glisten

I hate the way I am
As I hide it all inside
I hate the way it hurts so much
As I cry these tears,
I no Im not alright

Scared of who I am
Afraid of what I've become
Hurting so badley
But yet I still hold it all inside.