Secret

I don't want them to know,
this secret that i hide,
its too dark and scary,
only in myself i confide.

i don't want them to know,
i don't want them to feel bad,
but i want them to know,
that sometimes--i get really sad.

i want them to know,
but not to that extent,
that overpowers me inside,
i try and stay content.

i don't want them to know,
that this hurts me really bad,
but i don't want them to feel sorry for me,
its not their fault i'm sad.

i don't want them to know,
that i cry late at night,
over things like i'm no good enough,
i cry without a fight.

i don't want them to know,
i let my tears fall,
but i don't hurt myself physically,
i want to tell them all.

i don't want them to know,
that my thoughts are quite dark,
i was once a burning flame of light,
downgraded to a spark.

they don't know i feel this way,
but some day they'll see
how i felt deep inside my broken heart,
but ask how could it be?

they say i had so many friends,
i was creative and clever,
i can say i even had friends,
that said we're best friends forever.

i don't want them to know,
how i feel out of place,
so i walk beside them,
with a smile on my face.

i don't want them to know,
that i am hurt on the inside,
i just let my secret out,
now its in you that i confide.