Hate

I always wanted you there

Half the things I did for you no one would of even dared
Always calling me stupid and I still stay
Then at times I wonder why I never go away
Even when you ignore me

Yet I still want us to be
Only to be in your heart I wish but I hesitate
Until finally I asked, you told me we should wait

Bringing up the subject seems useless
Understanding why is hopeless
Trust is what it comes down to

I tried everything possible what should I could do

Listening to you bring up past love
Opening the door for new loves
Very patiently I wait outside the door to your heart
Existing is to live in pain seeing this rips me apart

Your me very reason of being
Only time will tell
Until then I am alive in this hell