Lying to myself...

I lie to myself everytime I say that she will be mine.
I lie to myself all the time.
I'm a shoulder to cry on.
A friend to talk to when everyone else is gone.
And here to listen when something goes wrong.
I fake the smiles and the laughs.
And wait for the time to pass.
That's the way that I live my life.
And in my minds eye I know it's not right.
I don't have the nerve to tell her how I feel.
In actuality it will never be real.
I spend everynight wishing that she was mine.
But that's not gonna happen, not this time.
Hold our memories closest to me.
Even if we aren't meant to be.
I'll be forever falling for her.
I'll be forever falling for her.
She doesn't know it.
I never show it.
I don't have the nerve to tell her.
I don't want to hear the anwser.
Tired of the rejection.
Tired of showing my affection.
Jesture's are my words.
But they never work.
And that kinda hurts.
She smiles, and I smile back.
When she cries my world goes black.
I hold her close.
In my world she means the most.
I wipe the tears from her eyes.
Watch as her pain dies.
She'll never know how I feel.
Our love will never be real.
I lie to myself everytime I say that she'll be mine.
I lie to myself all the time.
She goes away and my world begins to melt.
I tell myself that she'll be mine, but I find me lying to myself...