Re-Awakening

Words I search within my mind.
None strong enough that I can find.
Lost in thought; I'll stay confined.
I must retrieve what once was mine.

I now toss and turn in bed.
While movies replay in my head.
Of days when open veins just bled.
And tears of sadness always shed.

Memories flood through broken door.
Closer now to what I search for.
Now determined to dig more.
Re-discover the me before.

Familiar anger coursing through.
Eyes open with sight anew.
This is me, the monster who
Stood faceless with sins that grew.

Regret and sorrow burning deep.
Unspoken, words forever keep.
Jump off a point that's high and steep.
Apathetic, undesirable me...