So many things i want to say

There so many things I want to say
but I can't, not this way,
things aren't like how they were,
emotions just occurred,
mind gets confused,
heart being abused,
building my own wall,
only to have it fall,
why do I do this,
having feelings I don't wish,
things need to be said,
not only read,
you make it hard to not like you,
I enjoy everything you do,
your faults, I like it all,
but your not there to catch me when I fall,
one last cry,
one last goodbye,
with you that's not the situation,
because with you I have patience,
pain rolling down my face,
it doesn't disappear, not with a trace,
take these feelings away,
my heart can't stand them to stay,
they keep breaking me down,
so far I'm on the ground
embracing the wet on my face,
not enough strength to wipe away,
longing for you to be the one who stays..