Thats great you want to live the way you want to live, you don't want ot have to explain to people why you are the way you are..you wish they coudl just look at you and KNOW why you acted the way you did. I have felt the same.

and yet at eh same tiem you're tired of tryign to find that balance that by seeing you they wil KNOW why....so leik you said you don't care anymore you jsut dont want to be alone.

Make sure that that doesnt get you in trouble that you at least rememebr who you are even when you "dont care, but dont want to eb left alone" stay in the right crowds and ALWAYS BE YOURSELF...keep it up anotehr great piecee.

lissa