Not Me

Everything we talked about last night
Was not fake,

But I have to let this out,
Before it is too late.

I thought I wanted to be with you,
But I really don\'t.

I\'m sorry I led you on,
And in the future I won\'t

Do that anymore.

I know you thought
I was the person you waited

Your whole life for.

It turns out
That that girl you\'re looking for,

Is not me,

I\'m sorry things had to turn
Out like this

And that I have to leave.

I now know that I have to find
Out what\'s best for me.

I spend so much time
Trying to please everybody,

But myself.

I know that even if I never
Have anything else,

I always have

My whit,
My charm

Hands that would never
Do anyone harm

Love,
Sent from above.

A heart,

That in the past
Has fallen apart

But has been continuously
Picked up,

Piece by broken piece.

I am all I need
In the end

And yes it is nice
To always have friends.

My point in this
Is to tell you my feelings

And I know that your broken
Heart now needs some healing.

I know that this life can get pretty hard
And a lot of times when you think things are good

You always wind up scarred.

I know because I\'ve felt
What you feel.

I thought I had someone who would
Always be for real.

Please don\'t dislike me;
I\'m only telling the truth,

Please forgive me
Because I know I\'ve hurt you.

Don\'t get me wrong;
I do love you

And I can\'t let that go,
And every time I talk to you,

My love will surely show.

To say and do these things are
Tough decisions,

But I know you have a wonderful
Heart that is so very forgiving.

Please don\'t say that
If I am not your girl,

We are not able to speak,
I want to be there for you

So why don\'t you just think.

I want you in my life,
And about that I won\'t think twice.

I know how you are;
I love your spirit.

You are a beautiful person,
And don\'t ever forget it.

You are sweet
Someone who can fulfill any need.

Please don\'t keep me
From all you have to give,

Please understand that
You help my heart to live.

It hurts me so bad
To let you go

A pain that I hope
You will never have to know.

Having to say these things
Just about makes me want to burst

Your love for me will run out
And I will thirst

For all the love you have.
Oh how this makes me so sad.

Baby,
I love you so much.

But I can\'t risk hurting you again.
It hurts even more to say

That we can be nothing more
Than friends.

Please understand that I
Am not making excuses,

Because if that was true,
This letter would be useless.

I know this is so sudden
But who\'s to say what the future holds,

This is so brutally hard
To let you go.

I love you baby, and
I know you love me,

But I can\'t do this anymore,
So just be free..*******
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