Not Love

Everything you told me
It was all lies.

It's nothing new;
I'm not surprised.

I'm so used to it,
I don't even cry.

You thought you would get away;
I caught you again.

The person that helped me happened to be

Your very best friend.

It was time.
I just had to let go;

I loved you more than
You'll ever possibly know.

You keep hurting me.
I can't take this anymore,

I don't need you;
What did I deserve that for?

We both made our mistakes,
But we both got older.

I guess you thought it would
Make you smarter, maybe even bolder.

Maybe you thought
You were smart enough not to get caught.

But I will admit,
I was in some shock.

You swore to me;
You broke it.

You told too many lies;
I'm over it.

Over this,
Over you.

Over the lies,
You couldn't be true.

Not me and you.
We aren't meant to be,

I wonder why it took so long
For me to finally wake up and see.

I thought I had you;
I don't.

I can be true,
But you won't.

The end of us
Is near

I couldn't say this
Before,

Because I had
So much fear.

Fear of being sad,
Fear of being alone,

Fear of remembering my past;
It was so cold.

But now,
I know my heart

Deserves something better,
Better than pain.

I let it all out in this letter,
So my eyes wonâ??t start the burning rain.

From all of this sadness,
What is there to gain?

We had our fun,
But now it's come to an end.

I won't ever take you back,
But I'll always be your friend.

I won't forget you;
All that you've done.

How I thought
You were the only one

For me,
But now it's easy for me to see

I wasn't really in your dreams.

If I was,

We would had have a future,
But instead,

You turned out to be loser.

Someone that would dare
To hurt me

After all you know
I've been through,

Someone I cared about
And to think I trusted you.

You wanted someone else,
So now you can keep her,

And don't you ever think about me
When you are about to leave her.

Maybe the same thing you did to me,

Will happen to you

And you will know what it feels like
When someone hurts you.*