Vanished

I can sit here for minutes, seconds or hours
I could go to your house and bring you flowers
That was then, so much has changed
Everything we thought we knew has managed to become deranged

As the tide rolls in and the water falls
The cigerette is already lit and the back porch calls
I have only one thing running through my head
I wish I was dead

I lost it all in an a snap
A second just like that
Everything we had vanished before my eyes
And now, nothing matters no matter how hard I try

I fu(ked up, I want you back.
But this time you sucked up and showed me the facts
I left you for nothing and no reason at all
This will go down for me as my greatest fall

I miss you more than you'll ever know
But this is lost now, it's all lost though