Just me

Its really not easy coming to school hding my stomach just as i do at the pool. so many people watch me walk to the halls feeling scared and embarrased, in my own skin i crawl. i hate my body i hate being me. i hate looking in the mirror and seeing someone i don\'t want to be. there are so many days i don\'t want to be seen. because maybe i won\'t even fit into my fat jeans. my friends tell me that i\'m not fat, but i\'m not stpuid enough to believe that. if it wasn\'t true then why would i be crying. they don\'t understand when they say that. inside i\'m dying. i\'m scared i\'ll never be skinny or pretty enough to never be made fun of but i will be strong. i\'m not going to give up i\'m not giving in anymore at least not in front of your eyess but when i\'m alone at night thats when i\'ll cry.