How can things be so different
and change so suddently.
my life has barely started
and yet already i feel worthless.
while faking smiles seemed so easy,
its getting harder everyday.
it just seems so pointless staying around
when i live in my sins and regrets.
feeling the pain on the inside,
used to be enough.
but now im in need of more agony
and so i create my work of art.
my arm has never looked so beautiful
i feel so much pleasure just looking at it.
but it hurts to know that it\'s wrong
how will i ever live with myself?
im on the verge of tears at the worst of times
and sometimes i dont even know why?
i guess im just sick of being around.. sick of
feeling like second best all the time.
i understand that nobody\'s perfect..
but they\'re so much closer to it than me..
i can\'t even find a reason to keep me alive
yet i cant find a good enough one to die.
