Do what you should..... if only i would

Y am i suffering??
ur da bad person here
cheating, lying, promising
and now i live with fear

fear of what i deserve
da worry of being cort
shouldnt fall in love wid da wrong ppl
a lesson in life ive bin taught

u deserv da pain
but yet i c u lauf n smile
mayb its a cover up
and ur crack up in a while

but mayb u hav cried
i doubt it tho honestly
u always knu wt u wer doin
secretly breaking n ruining me

i crackd up ages ago
cried as my heart broke
now im pretendin 2 smile
as really i choke

but il get on with it
believe me i will cope
u aint worth my tears
i know that now...i hope

should of learnt
i keep finking dat i finally know
shouldnt hav held on firstly
and now i hav 2 let u go

right thing 2 do tho
need 2 do what i should
stedve of wat i want
if i only i really could

i do what i want
and always end up alone in tears
mayb il do what i should
and mayb il hav less fears