Please understand when i say

People can't accept when you say
That you don't feel OK

And sometimes people will never understand why
You'd rather run then to sit and cry

People have opinions and different views
And from that, some people win & some people lose

Everyday when i finally wake
I put on a smile that's half-fake

I guess i have my good days and bad
And then there are the days i wish i never had

I can't stand being so young and already stressed,
I'm trying so hard but it seems it has progressed...

I'd still live & die for all my friends
Because, with them, my true happiness never ends

But then i slam right into a brick wall
To where i become weak and want to fall

I guess the problem in my life
Is this home that i come home to every night

And then people ask me why i don't talk,
People won't understand, why is that such a shock?

How many people can honestly say
That my mother said she never loved me today

Who has to put there own life on hold
Because they're family is too lazy and too cold

Who has to take care of there gram
Since their family doesn't give a damn

This may not sound like much
But, the subject i didn't even begin to touch

So this is why my eyes fill up at night
This is why i mumble "I'm not alright"

It's so hard to live with a family of hate
And for so long, that feeling, you've tried to eliminate

So you want to ask me if I'm OK?
but i decide that i have nothing to say...

Don't worry, because it will be alright
I just haven't found that everlasting light

Please, don't be sad or get some kind of fear
When i say quietly "i don't want to be here"