Losing the battle

Losing the battle

all love comes from impurity,

insecurity wraps my heart like a minor clot.

i am unsure, stumbling,

never locking eyes with anyone.

fumbling, a clumsy giant,

i wish you all would look away.

if i wanted you to care,

i would ask you to.

i just want to be left alone.

i only stutter when i speak, foolish...

i am not worth the attention i get= none

and in my life,

i walk with my head down.

i say all the wrong things.... i only make things worse.

i know everyone thinks I'm a liar...

and I'm starting to believe them....

i never felt this suicidal.

oh.. can i be anything more then this screw up.

a crumpled love note and ripped pictures.

i am a feeble coward with no control.

i never believed i could stand.

i talk to myself to pass the time.

alone in my one room apartment.

throw me away... i want to die.

throw me away... i want to die.

throw me away... cast me aside.

i not worth nothing.

i wont live out this test in time.