Bright and cheery, this future of mine (something to look to)

Bright and cheery, this future of mine

in a funk of an age,

this year has been filled with walls,

stoned heavy and broke.

only looking to find something joyful in this land mine.

ready, steady, aimed to explode,

inward and torn to no one cause there\\\\\\\'s not a soul in this world.

creatively breaking promises, vows i made half heartedly.

tied to a past with no mercy,

grace has no claim on this horizon.

dark and leery is my shamefully devotion.

itching to stand and live it out.

but I\\\\\\\'m doomed to forever crawl on this dirty ground.

a ground made of insecure desires.

reeking of selfish lust and corrosion.

I\\\\\\\'m no more then the lowest sinner,

i know no answer, and i see no visions.

i care for no one. I\\\\\\\'m not humble, I\\\\\\\'m selfish.

greedy beggar with a tin cup, empty.

vindicated, narc