Realization

So many memories,
of all the happy days.
I wish I could go back,
and relive them in every way.

But I know that's not going to happen,
no matter how much I pray.
Yet I'm still not going to stop,
I'll still do it everyday.

Now that I've seen how,
much I truly love you.
I'm going to straighten up,
so I can safely be with you.

The more I f**k up,
and do stupid things.
The more I must wait,
to be happy and free.

So now that I'm maturing,
and realizing what I must do.
Everything is going to get better,
and not be like one big zoo.