Lost Before Go

I always lose
what I have,
and I always leave
what I had.

Is there a
future for me?
Not one that
I can see.

Im gonna die
at twenty five,
leaving behind
all of my lies.

No reason left to live
Ive given all I could give.
Ive lost my heart
more times then one.
Its ripped apart
and so I'm done.

I lost my girl
who I really did love.
Not just the word
the meaning above.

I lost her
to just a pretty face.
I chose lust over love
and lost trust for my crush

Cringing at the thought of life.

Looking for another way,
dying more each passing day.
Searching forever,
looking never,
finding nothing,
this love hurts.

No longer loving
myself at all.
No longer caring
while I begin to fall.

I feel the high
not the pain
I'm gonna die
feeling no shame
for the life I lived
or the way I died
my empty life
cured by this knife.