Eating??

The blue eyes shade off the sky.
upon her blond hair in the sun.
she sounds so perfect but really.
she has a problem with something.
but no one knows what's wrong.
no one knew before it started.

was it because she wasn't from.
from the hospital.
from her home.
a place where she belongs.
she would starve herself to death.
wishing and waiting to go home.

spending the night at a friends.
she would pretend she's home sick.
because she's hungry.
because she's starving herself.
she doesn't know what to do.

she feels guilty.
as everyone looks at her.
and she does not eat.
maybe she's anorexic.
maybe she's just sick in the head.
i don't know what it is.

I'm killing my body without eating.
but I'm also scared to do it.
I've been like this since i was a kid.
when i was born.
a nurse wouldn't help.
a doctor would just check.
but never run so many tests.

what's wrong with me?
is there something sickness of me.
why would anyone want me.
what do i do in this life?
starve myself to death.
because i can't just eat anywhere.
i was born like this.
this is my eating disorder.
and welcome to reading it.

*i really didn't know where to put this so i put it in sad because this is a true story and it's a kinda sad poem also*