My final words

I want to give up
And get away from this place
I want to be free
from all the problems I face

I've learned to hide them
Keep them locked inside
They don't know me
The real me I hide

I sit alone in my dark lonely room
Thinking of my life
Thinking of my problems
The ones which resorted me to the knife

I want to let it all go
Theres nothing left to live for
I can't take all the lying and the cheating
I'm ready to close life's door

To get away from everything
This to me would be the best
Leave it all behind me
As they lay my head to rest

Maybe they'll notice that I'm gone
They'll find me led across my bed
They'll see the blood and my letter
And the razor next to my head

The letter explains it
Tells them why I had to go
They didn't have a clue before
But finally they all know

All I wanted was to feel accepted
To be part of the giggles and fun
But no-one noticed me hopefully they'll realize just what they've done

Now they can weep for they know what they've done
I'll tell it to them loud and I'll say it clear
It's all your fault it's all down to you
You all the reason I'm lying right here

Well this is it I'm going now
I'm giving in and drifting away
I'm letting go one last time
I refuse to live another day

So good-bye and farewell
I shall never again see light of day
I'll never feel the happiness
I wish there was a reason for me to stay

But it's far to late now
Whats done is done
Everyone can get on with there lives
Not caring what they've done

I wish it could be someone else
I wish in this world I could stay
And fufulfilly hopes and dreams
And live my life my own way

I can't stay anymore though
I can't put up with all this pain
I want to stay here so bad
I want to relive my life again

Maybe it was my entire fault
That I have to end it this way
Maybe I could have done something
That would mean I could stay

But I can't take the loneliness
And having no friends
My life has barely started
And yet it has to end

I'm so sorry mom and dad
That you didn't have a clue
What my life was really like
But there was nothing you could do

I Know \'m going to hurt you
When I finally leave this life
I hope you notice why this happened
Why my only friend was the knife

It wasn't bullying really
They never did anything wrong
It was all me really
I guess I just didn't belong

So the end of my poem
I'm no longer a nerd
I've given up hope of ever belonging
These are my ..: Final Words:..