Forbidden Beauty

The pain is cutting deeper
Infection from the blade
Poisoning all thats left inside
Feeding the war inside me I've made

Crimson rain blocking my sight
I grasp for any holding
To make it through this storm
Made of hopelessness and nothings

But i only seem to be more clumsy
My grip is slipping out of hand
Can't seem to catch myself
This was not part of the plan

To find a way out
Away from a beauty too much for me
But captured once again
I find no reason to believe

A chill of desire crawling inside
Feeding this crave
To feel the cold metal
And give me my beautiful pain

How will i get away this time
Starting over again and again
Only to fall back deeper
Away from the person i am