I cry ed last night..
So I could be alright..
Something happened..
and I lost the fight..
I couldn't control my tears.
I was thinking about more fears..
Now I feel like I'm a failure..
I try my hardest not too..
but the knife was calling my name.
"Nick you need to cure your life with this..
with out me..This pain always going to be there"
I don't know what I was thinking
but it was overwhelming
I tried to lay in my bed..
but I kept thinking of something to dread..
All the bad thoughts came and builds up in my head..
I just couldn't help
but pick up the knife..
and slide it across..
my wrist..
giving it a little twist..
thinking to my self..
" would any one miss me if I didn't exist"?
I thought if I wrote happy..
I would be happy..
but now somethings leaving me feel crappy..
I try..
but now that one thing is leaving me want to die..
I have to tell her..
that I'm starting to like some one new..
I just think its the flue..
but it's leaving and making me feel so blue..
I still love her..
and always will..
but that other girl is here..
and your over there..
I like her..I dint love her..Like I love you..
I'll never love her..as much as I love you now..
I know I can make this through..
but now I feel like shit..
I just had to tell her..
I told her If starting like some one new..
I would tell her..and now I am..
Kaycee I love you and I always will.
But its ok..That I started to feel something new..
I never thought this would happened..
I know this will make you feel blue.
but now you have a clue..
that I have feeling some one new
baby I love you just don't forget that..
