Why is that someone always getting hurt..
and I always feel like dirt..
My heart hurts too now dad..
I don know what it is..
I just feel sad..
I'm scared to tell anyone..
I don't want to go through the pain..
as you did,
Seeing you hopeless.
lying there and you cant even get up..
seeing tears come down your face..
makes me want to cry..
Or just lie there and die..
if you were gone..
I wonted know where to go..
I wonted know how to stick up for myself..
must of all I wonted know how to live..
dad my heart is hurting to?
what do I do..
tell or should I just give up ?
Everything at this point hurts..
dad am I supposed to be strong..
Because I feel like everything I do is wrong..
I love you ,
and mom..
But I don't know if I can follow through..
I am loosing it..
I don't even know if any one cares..?
I locked up..
Like a bottle
and you have closed the lid
I feel like a little kid..
I miss the old me..
and how I used to be..
I used to love life..
Until everything went down hill..
I never used to think about a knife..
to end my life..
but all I want to do now is die..
All I do is cry..
and I'm sorry but things arn't the same I miss the way I was..
and I'm sorry for pushing you away..
I never meant it to end this way..
