The thoughts thats running through my head
Has my mind all twisted up
Why wont they leave?
There making my head erupt
What are they trying to tell me?
I just cant make it out
As I sit in my room in silence
It feels like my walls are starting to shout
There telling me I'm stupid to be in silence for so long
To let my mind build up making my heart so sore
To let myself be stepped on until I cant take no more
To love someone when that loves out the door
To hold on to love when I know deep down inside it's gone
Not letting love in my heart because I've been scared for so long
To hurt people I love and to hurt myself
Not telling people how I feel and holding it inside myself
As my walls speak out the truth
A tear leaves my eyes
Cause all this time
I've been so blind
Finally I turn to the wall and ask what to do
When my head is pounding and when I'm so confused
They tell me to think about my life and how good it use to be
When i was true to myself like people was true to me
When their was no lies and no secrets was held
Thinking about that tears finally fell
As they fall and I go to wipe my eyes
My head start to clear as I begin to realize
How my life use to be when I was just a little girl
But now as I start to grow I'm stepping into the real world
Thats how my confusion started because I wasn't ready to face the fact
That the life I had before was never coming back
That I deceived people just like I've deceived myself
Because I wanted back all the feelings I've once felt
Now its time to move on to face this world on my own
To love myself and let all the love thats inside me show
My head start to clear as the voice of the walls fade away
My tears starts to dry up and the pain in my heart drifts away
I close my eyes to a mind that I'm really not use to
With a smile on my face knowing I'm no longer confused.
(This is the first poem i wrote dats not about love. Please comment)
