The person I long to be
Seems so out of reach
Can't find happiness
Everywhere I turn is a dead end
Try so hard to please
But my attempts go un-noticed
No one can understand
The pain I face
Wake up in the morning
Pick a different mask
To hide the pain inside
I don't understand
Why I go through so much
I look around at all the happy faces
Why can't I just be like them
Trapped inside my mind
Held captive by my thoughts
Can't get away
No matter how hard I try
I only can think of one thing
To take away the pain
Going back to my old ways
Is a path I don't want to face
It hurts when people look right past
And the ones who say they love you
Seem so distant as if they don't even care
Sometimes I just want to end it all
I think that maybe its my destiny
For my life to be taken by my own hand
But that don't seem right
That's not how this story should end
So much to bare
So much to shoulder
I can't handle the pressure anymore
I look for God
But sometimes its as if he's not even there
I'll go on
In hopes that someday, things will get better
And I'll find the happiness I so long for
