The Curse Of Feeling

If my eyes are dry
and I never seem to weep
How can other people see
that the hurt is oh so deep

I hold up my defences
Almost everywhere I go
I try so damn hard
Not to let my feelings show

When my heart feels so cold
and when it does endlessly bleed
How am I to know deep down
What I really need

All I want is to forget..
To no longer feel
I hate all this acting
I never feel real

Inside I feel as if
slowly I am dieing
I find things so hard
Life seems so trying

And as I dream at night
its so hard all I see is him
killing torturing hurting
me constantly

That’s why
I don’t
want to
feel anymore