My Final Note

Every Second of Pain
Just seems to Grow
Now i let my feelings out
I'm here to let it show

My Words here are useless
I have no reason for this life
Every Second i glance
Closer Comes the Knife

The knife speaks to me
It says "You know you want an end,
You Know it hurts so much
She was never your girlfriend"

It seems so convincing
and right now its taking over
The Feeling and Hurtful Pain
Once it was not Over

I'm letting it Ruin my Head
Its getting Deep in me
I guess its time to go
and i want everyone to see

I'm going no where near heaven
Yet way past Hell
I don't even know where I'm going
No one can tell

The Vision of Me gone
Only Sadness for a day
Next thing you know I'm forgotten
I don't get one single Pray

My P&Q Friends
Thank you all for caring
But its now i show my care back
even though its UN-bearing

Many of you gave me guidance
Like ~Poetess~ and Bob Shank
And Many others that helped me
To all i give a great big thanks

To my Friends and
Well come to think i never had any,
Im not like others
When its friends they have plenty

I give a Special Thanks to my cousin,
Nathan..You were always there
and i know your gonna hate it
and you think its UN-fair

That i must go
and leave you here,
But don't be so hurt
Don't let it Bring a Tear

I'm doing to show you all
On How much love i have to give
and how much pain i got
But i still take it and forgive

Nathan you always had my back
you helped me and helped you back,
but now its time i go
and theres no looking back

Christina..I love you so much
Yeah you still don't know
But once I'm done with my life
You'll see as i go

You'll realize and see
That love is something i have for you,
But do you still love me,
and was kissing that guy True?

This Poem is For everyone
Everyone who is in my life
I'm sorry if it hurts
But i must take this knife

Don't take this the wrong way
I'm not going suicidal
This is just my final note
Thats why its my title...

~Dedicated to everyone i know in my life....~