Forever hiding...

You looked at me,
i laughed.
you winked at me,
my heart jumped.

but wait, why,
this isnt right,
who are you to me?
i dont even know you!

from then on everytime i saw you,
my heart would float,
never knowing when i would see you next,
soon i hoped.

then my stupidity and confusion muddled everything up,
my lack of brains....im such a screw up!!

you a got a gf,
my heart broke,
i tried to move on,
one could only hope

there was another in my life,
a special other whom i liked also,
your love slowly faded,
i grew to love him.

a few months down the track,
and you suddenly reappear,
suddenly sparks fly again,
suddenly i confuse myself too much to explain.

for i love him,
but you ive always wanted,
do i stay with him
or should i be with you?

once again youve moved on without me,
you get a gf,
my heart shatters

a selfish way of thinking,
perhaps
but you made my decision for me,
quickly i hide my love for you.

i love my baby more now,
though he must never know,
so on i go ... i continue...
forever hiding my love for you.