My Deepest Wish

It was easy to love you,
I won't lie.
Now that you're gone,
I'm just trying to get by.

Yes, it's you again.
It's you I;m writing about.
I'm sorry,
But you're all I think about.

I wish I could focus on
Something else.
When I see a mirror,
I don't even see myself.

What do I see?
I see sadness
It wasn't ever this bad,
And now I'm a mess.

When I wish upon a star,
I no longer wish for your love.
What I wish for now
Is for help to unlove.

I don't want to love you anymore.
I don't want to see you.
I don't want to think about you,
But it's hard to do.

Deep down, I want you to love me.
I want you to feel something.
Because I know when you come back,
This won't be just another fling.

The sky's not helping,
So I lay down in the dirt.
I want to be free,
From all of this hurt.

I dig a hole.
I can't take it anymore.
I bury the necklace you gave me,
So I can try to ignore.

My deepest wish
Is to be rid of this.
Unless you really meant,
That it was I you missed

I need to stop this.
It is slowly killing me.
Isn't that what I wanted though,
To be completely free?