It hit me so hard. The pain was unbearable. This had been my biggest fear for years. Fear that this would end the wrong way. Fear that I would be overcome by the incredible moments; not stopping to realize what was really going on. Not wanting to believe that someone like you could do this to someone like me, to take someone so fragile, make me stronger, knowing to live in the moments but think in the future. You got what you wanted and broke me. You shattered my heart once again. Only thinking of you. The anguish I feel right now. It is agonizing to know you could do such a thing. I guess I should have expected this. I guess I should have known. That not only someone like you could do this, but also someone like you could do this more than once; to watch me fall in love, to watch my heart grow stronger then defeat everything in one move. As if it wasn't good enough to watch me go though the pain the first time. You are thrilled to see it again. My trust for you was more than you could imagine. After all we had been through. After all I had given to you. My heart, my thoughts, my life was in your hands. Like everything else in life, it was taken from me. Ripped away like it meant nothing. Leaving me here, alone, to drown myself in thought of what I did wrong. Was this my fault? What did I do? Could I have fixed this? Or was it you? The questions are endless, the answers, unimaginable. I don't want to know the answers, in fear that they may cause more pain than I am already suffering from.
