My suicidal heart

Yes, I'm unstable, watch me stumble, I'm crawling back to our love that never existed, why did you leave me alone.
you want me to forget because you've forgotten, to leave you so you can be alone, i watch you ignore my silent screams, you want me to die from my hearts suicide.
I've lost the one person that proved to me they cared, who saved me from myself, but they never knew how much every look meant, now I'm thrown back where i started.
back to the razorblades and the drowning, left consumed by our once cherished memories, fighting the urge everyday, to commit my hearts awaited suicide.
every look and smile led me on.it went strait to my heart, they didn't mean a thing, until it was too late and you were gone.
your very presence and the look you give, follows and cuts whats left of my heart, but i guess you cant see, you just don't care that you saved me.
empty, all alone again, consumed by everything we had, leading me to my suicide...