That painful Girl

The way I feel
is the way I live
one step each day
trying to make my way

But with out my hope
its hard for me to even breath
living with such a pain
living life as its a game

What I did was stupid
for sure it was dumb
but I thought it was the right thing to do
it was that girl that always left me feeling so blue

I'm sure your lost at this point
but it doesn't matter to me
I just want you to know how I feel
what I hate is something so real

Here let me explain my life
I have a girl that loves me so much
but yet I left her
because of the way she is

She just seems to love me so much
but yet I hurt her so much
we are apart and sometimes it makes me sad
it makes me feel so bad

She does everything to get back with me
and yet I push her away
I can't help for how we are
I know for the time we were together she left a scar

Maybe someday I will learn
I hope that is soon
I wish not to hurt another
if I can't learn then I don't want to go any farther

My life is painful
words can't explain how I truly feel
I know that someday I may not be here tomorrow
I will let my tears and blood just flow and leave her a widow