Cutting me open is only way
To see how I really feel
I donâ??t share my feeling
Cause I donâ??t want to be yelled at
Or even to make you feel bad
I want you to be happy
And I donâ??t want to get hurt
I tried so hard hoping
Dad wouldnâ??t go on the road
Or mom to the bars
But it never worked
I always ended up sitting by myself
In that big house
Full of bad memories
And screaming thoughts
Caring less and less
Getting bad grades
And hanging out with people
That werenâ??t good for me
Your love seamed to be slipping
And I started looking in different ways
Now I got the scars to say Iâ??ve been there
But I feel things are only going to get wrong
As I get older
With my family fighting over me
I feel torn between two that I donâ??t want
I want away from it all
I donâ??t want either of these families
One full of yelling
And nothing is ever good enough
The other has a baby coming
And it already seems they love it
More then me
Even though itâ??s not even there yet
And you tell me to be different from
Everyone else
But went I am you donâ??t like it
And say why canâ??t you be more normal
No, you donâ??t say it out loud but I can tell by the look in your eyes
I want you to back off
And let me be who I want
But I could never tell you this myself
Cause I want you to be happy
Even if it means I wonâ??t be
Because Iâ??m afraid of hurting you
And being hurt by you
