I dont deserve to live..

Today is Sunday February 26,2006 and it is 2:41 am and here I am sitting here being depressed and the day before yesterday i made the worst mistake of my life. I let the one I love go. I wanted to be with someone else and then I let Cory Puga go and then a few hours later I realized I really do love him.Well I told him how I felt and he don't care. Well I thought he cared because after I told him he just sayed well i gotta go and then he said i love you and i asked if he would take me back and he said he would think about it and he really showed how bad guys don't really hurt. I love him and he needs to see that...He wont take me back and I screwed it up...I thought he would take me back but he don't care...I really want him to see how much he hurt me and how much I care about him.....I really loved him but he has no heart...Well I am so depressed here and I am so sick and lonely....I wanna go to sleep and and never wake up... I wanna crawl into bed and never move I just lost the love of my life and everything I see reminds me of him... nothing will ever be the same again... I can never see him again...I miss him so much well i am gonna cry my eyes out so bye for now....