Trapped

1.
The bars that entrap me,
Soft silken bonds.
Easy to destroy.
Yet I am unable.

Chained in this cage,
This unbearable enclosure.
Prey to loneliness, hate and anger.
Feeding on me and stalking me relentlessly -
Whereever I wander.

Happiness seems alien to me.
Numbness on the inside strangles me,
It possesses me on the outside.
One day I'll explode.

2.
The voices inside begging to be heard,
Yet help them I can not.
They yearn to break free.
They to cut them out.

Buried deep in a hole, I feel.
Clawing pathetically for the surface.
Suffocating in the earth.
Trapped and slowly dying.

3.
Cascades of blood tinted tears,
Crawl down my forlorn face -
Casting rainbow light on the sodden floor.
They never seem to cease.

A pool hath formed around my crumpled being.
I see a withered image rippling within thus gleaming surface.
A form ripped up by deep woe,
Polluted by sadness -
This vision is myself.

4.
Worn down by misery.
Hounded by the past and present -
Beasts that tear me apart.
Aching for something,
Yet I know not what.

My shields are built high,
But easy to crush.
Like bones of the rotting deceased.

5.
Looking out of my foul prison,
I perceive a beautiful untarnished sky of all colours and a shining sun.

A woman stands against the wind -
The sweet air cradling her.
She is smiling and full of peace.
Not a care in this forsaken world graces her face.
I realise I am seeing myself,
How I so wish to be.

Visions glide past me,
Like a tapestry of dreams.
It's painful to watch them float by -
Yet I can not pull myself away.
They taunt me.

6.
Oh the gripping hurt to be shackled here,
My own soul destroying hell.
Grasping for something thats just not there.

Written - 28/9/05