In The End

I need to know
I need to understand
What have you been doing?
What are you hiding?
Do you even know what I have been through?
I went through it all for you
I have always thought of you
Thought of how you would feel
How you would feel if I said anything
It is just getting so hard
I believe it is beyond saving
If what I hear is true
And if I am starting to see
See what they say...
Then what will I do?
I think you know
But I really do not want to
Am I right?
Am I wrong?
Oh god I hope I am...
I hope I am wrong
I tried to fall asleep last night
But I could not
I kept thinking of all the things
All the things I love about you
The way you hold me tightly when I cry
How your always there when I need a shoulder to lean on
The way I feel when our eyes meet
The way I look at you
They way you look at me
That smile on your face
But all of this I have not seen
It seems a long time ago that I did
It has just been so long
Long enough that I have come to understand
Understand the reasons why
Relationships are built on trust
And I am not sure that I can trust you anymore
You have never seemed to trust me
So why should I trust you?
Just give me some reasons
Assure me that everything will be okay
That none of it is true
Make me believe
At least try
I know you have been lying
There are many things you have been keeping
I am not blind
I have known it all for enough time
Yet for some reason I stayed with you
I think that it is because I can always remember the good times
And I still can
But you see...
The bad is heavier than the good
It is hard to find the reasons
I have beat my self up long enough
Now I need some answers
Thats all I need
Is that too much to ask?
The one thing is...
That even after all of this...
The one thing I can not explain...

I still love you...

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