I've seen things in my life I never wanted to see,
I've became things in my life I never wanted to be.
I've let many people down,
My childhood smile turned to a frown.
I had to grow up so fast,
I had to be the strong one when my Grandpa passed.
It all happened the day before I turned 13,
So much pain and anger in me I just turned mean.
Started kickin' it with the "wrong crowd",
With drugs and alcohol all my problems got drowned.
I walked around with a constant high,
I just let life pass me by,
Everything I said was a lie,
I was always asking God why?
Why did things have to be so hard?
But never once did I drop my gaurd.
Misleading people about my pain,
I said Fucc It all and got jumped into a Sur Side gang.
Finally I had a family,
Until things turned deadly.
The pain and anger all came back,
It was crazy I never thought I'd actually get stabbed.
After that night everythign in me changed,
My thoughts all became deranged.
All you had to do was look in my eyes and you could see,
That I was different and I wasnt really me.
Now I'm 17 getting ready to turn 18,
Things are getting better or so it seems.
I'm still in my gang,
That aint changed.
But I want a good life now,
I wanna get there but I dont know how?
Someone reach out and hold my hand,
And lead me into the promise land....
