Last night i was terrified for mom told me something i didn't want to hear
she told me you killed yourself it was to much for me to bear
i couldn't move paralyzed for good
i was in shock i was in tears as i stood
thinking about just the other day
i saw your smiling face you went on to say
your my baby sister i love you and I'll see you
i joked around not really thinking and said you too
if i would have known it was the last chance i would get
i would have held you forever and told you every last bit
of how i loved you and I'd never forget
how i looked up to you, you were my big bro
i wanted to be just like you when i began to grow
you had a good life so why did you leave
mom told me all about the letter but i just couldn't believe
i never saw it coming i never would have guessed
that you were like that inside just one big mess
i thought about all the times we had together even when we would fight
now I'm all alone cause god has you tonight
i never got to say goodbye or tell you i love you one last time
before you took that gun and committed your crime
