Tears I Cry

When i see you
I don't know what to do
Painful thoughts come back
I can't figure out what i lack

Is it your touch
That i crave so much
Is it your face
That i can't trace

I try so hard but i always break down
Why can't i smile instead of frown
Does my past hurt me this much
The answer is yes it hurts a bunch

Tears i cry
Late at night
Blury sight
Until the morning light

People ask me what is wrong
But theres so many things because its been so long
There are many reason for my tears
And i have so many fears

I cry from pain
I go insane
I cry from heart breaks
So much time this takes

I am mostly crying
From loved ones dieing
To keep my head up becomes real hard
Im afraid this sweet blondie doesn't play the part

My heart deep inside
Has died
Because i don't know what to feel
Nothing seems real

I hate my life
I take this knife
I must die
To run from the tears i cry