by Elizabeth Feb 27, 2006
category :
Sadness, depression /
about death
Its so unfair that someone who never did any harm to anyone could be gone in a blink of an eye. I know people are going to say I know what you're going through but honestly not even I can begin to fathom the pain that seems to keep growing with every waking moment. I'm a melting pot of pure and utter desolation and pain and depression. Its only.... I cant even describe how I feel in writing and that has never happened before. Normally writing helps me to relieve pain and depression, but I think that the pain is so immense right now that its not even helping. I wish I could just forget... if only for awhile. To not remember would be a godsend. I have never experienced this amount of depression and sadness and just plain hurt before in my entire life. Not even when Isaac and I broke up after 2 1/2 years. My heart has been broken before, but not like this. This time there is NO chance of repair. My heart feels as if it has been torn from my body to be trampled on the dirt and germ ridden ground then to be rescued, but heaved into a blender after someone has hit puree. |