Torn

I thought I'd lost my pain,
sealed myself up tight,
I wouldn't let you hurt me again,
but still I cried into the night.

Who was I kidding?
They could see it in my eyes,
the pain I tried forgetting,
the pain I tried to hide.

I can't handle it anymore,
too badly I want you back,
I don't care about what you've done
I don't care about the facts.

But it seems you have forgotten me
Your daughter of sixteen years,
I don't want to admit the truth,
but I'm betrayed by my own tears.

There's nothing I can do,
I know you won't come back,
You walked out of my life,
and covered up your track.

Yet somehow I know your with me
tormenting my very soul,
even though your far away,
the pains not getting old.

I can't handle this!
Your leaving was too much,
I want to forget you exist,
to escape your painful clutch.

You can take it all back,
I don't want it anymore,
your love is not enough,
you've torn me to the core.

Now I am broken,
all the pieces are lost,
a gap is left with in me,
my hearts layered with frost.

But I guess that you don't care,
after all it's been so long,
I haven't heard a word,
what did I do wrong?
~Monstergrrl