Something trapped within

The day you went away
i thought it would be OK
never knew it would be the last
never knew you'd become a memory of the past

now your up in heaven
singing a song so clear
saying that you love me
your voice i long to hear

all the fun times we had
all the laughs we shared
still have meaning in my eyes
even though you went to die

fighting for it
i wish you were here
even though you died with pride
still those days i had feared

i wish you could be here
i may just be stronger
i wish our memories could've lasted longer

without you i have no reason it seems
without you i feel nothing
with you i was happy
with you i had reasons

now i want to leave
i almost did i swear
i almost took my own life
but still didn't i dare

some many times i tried
but then a question would run through my mind
what it is i have no clue
all i know is i wish i had you

my brother my friend
i will love you till the end
but without you here
my soul is weak

for now i never speak,
i never cry
yet i still wonder why
how long before i reach the brink

how long till i break down for good
when will this night mare be over
sometimes i still don't believe
i want to know your still here with me

i love you
i hate them
i want you hear
but now i have fears

*** for my friend kyle who lost his brother in Iraq....