Cry for help

Today everything just seemed to fall apart
Everyone around seems so far out of touch
Questioning why my life's a mess, where do i start?
I've tried picking up the pieces but now I've given up

It's like my body's in shut down, refusing to do anything
I lay on my bed, just lie and stare while eyes sting
I stare into thin air hoping something might change
I seem to think if i wait, but it all stays the same

All i do is complain about my life, its hopeless, pathetic, emo right?
Maybe all the backstabbing comments are true, I'm a complaining emo, who feels sorry for herself cuts and cries and too scared to put up a fight
Maybe it is true, maybe it's not since my life isn't as easy as it looks
I smile, i have plenty of friends, i go out and party every weekend
But that's my disguise while i drink and disappear
I can leave my mind a little while without a care
But none of you know how it feels to fall flat on your face

I've just fallen into a depressing rut
I can't seem to move I'm stuck
I'm running from my life, i can't face what's true
I can't face me while i definitely can't face you

But yet again i am alone, everyones run of and i know i am doomed
Please tell me what am i supposed to do?
Don't want to live but to scared to die?
Some please save me so i don't have to runaway and hide...