Once upon a romantic dream
i believed you were there for me...
How could i have been so blind
It wasn't me you wanted to find
You took what i didn't offer as freely as if i did.
Raping my body while my mind receded inside
Alone i carried this burden
Alone i cried
Alone i cut
Alone i tried
But in the end i was hurt
We both knew you were stronger
I couldn't fight for much longer
So in the end you got your way
it was the same every day
I was distant from my friends and family at best
no one ever understanding the rest
While i retreated into my troubled mind
My only sanctuary i could find
i was afraid to die,
so continuously i was forced to lie
most of the time i willed myself to die
please let it end i would whisper to my blade, my only friend
Now all grown up I'm still all alone
my childhood fears had grown
making me paranoid and scared
Alone in my room i would sit and stare at the picture of an innocent child ripped to shreds, not even there.
I would wear my mask and put on a smile
yet my eyes were cold never betraying the feelings i felt.
Now my mask is cracking and slipping off
people are seeing behind my mask to the tormented child underneath
Pity me, they do, but what they never see
Is the child that once was me!
