One last time

One last time
I shall kiss your lips of sweet wine and of treason

One last time I shall fall asleep next to you
Safe loved and warm

One last time I shall let these same ol' tears flow down my lonely cheeks
Staining me with all of my worthlessness

One last time I will break down
And let myself fall from grace
And let my crimson blood run from smooth cuts

One last time
I will say I love you
Before I let myself sink and fade
Into your love and care

One last time
I will let myself feel the pain and anger
That for seventeen long years
Has unnerved me and brought me
Ever so close to the end

One last time
Will I lose control and allow myself
To resort to that yes so alluring
But sinful blade

One last time