Disgraced

I know I need to open up, but I don't think I can.
Instead I just clam up, and push away your hand.

How could I ever express all the emotions I feel.
As you embrace the closeness my mouth becomes sealed.

I know that you would never hurt me like he did,
You said our love is forever and sealed it with a kiss.

But when I close my eyes instead of seeing your face,
I sometimes get a horrid surprise that fills me with disgrace.

An old man, a family member, with his empty eyes on me.
I try not to remember but instead of you it's him I see.