You're My lover; I'm Your Faults

I'm a bird with clipped wings
trying to fly away from your cold heart.
fly south, my mind screams to me.
my body jerks away from your icy touch
and i wince at the sound of your empty words.
i flap my wings in hope of finally soaring to freedom.
i have faith
and i believe in love
as long as i'm anywhere but here
with you.

your bedroom is like a cage
and i am trained so well
that even with the door left open
i will not leave.
i'm bound to you
by heart
by head
by this noose you've tied around my neck.

i flinch when you come near;
i cannot stand to be away from you.
you don't hold me like i'm your lover;
you hold me like i'm your burden.
i am something you cannot just toss away
though you wish you could
and i beg you to do it.

i'm nothing to you but a body to use
and refuse
and darling
someday that just won't be enough anymore.

your presence has a negative affect on my existance;
i tense up
and shut down
and pretend that its not real.
i'm not here, honey
you're imagining your hands on my sweaty skin
and my cracked lips against yours. oh wait, thats me;
pretending i'm not real.

it doesn't hurt as much if i pretend
that i cannot feel you.
but darling
each fingertip to numb skin burns;
i'm not numb at all.

i'm yours for the taking
a broken soul needing mending.
you promised a love i dreamed of
and forced me into a hell i could not imagine.
i'm a dreamer, you're a player.
we clash
but we work out so well
we've almost become one.
one soul, one existance;
you control me and i let you.
i give you the power you crave
and you use it over me.

i'm every fault you didn't want;
i'm every weakness you wouldn't show.
you gave me the fright you held inside
and now i cannot lift my head
out of the crevace of your neck
to look at the world around me.

i'm safe here with you, honey.
you tell me so yourself.
safe from the world in which i could find love;
safe from the reality others live in freely.
maybe freedom is overrated. maybe the south is too warm darling.
i think i'd rather be part of your icy heart;
i guess i'll stay in hopes of freezing mine over as well.

i'm a bird with clipped wings
but i won't try to fly.
you have led me to believe its useless;
i'll never escape you.