Diary of a little Girl

Dear diary,
You truly are my only friend in this world,
At school i sit on the bench alone,
I watch the other children play,
And wish maybe one day I could do the same.
The girls in my class whisper about me whenever I'm near,
They think I can't hear,
But they're wrong, as I hear their cruel laughter.
If only they knew.
Every day is torture diary,
But I'm a big girl,
I won't let them make me cry.
Mummy isn't home yet again,
Lately she hasn't been the same.
She comes in late at night when she thinks I'm sleeping,
Her breath smells of something strong,
And her make up is usually all run.
As for Daddy, all I do is make him mad,
He screams at me, I hate it when he raises his voice.
Last night when mummy went out again,
I was playing with my doll,
He came in to my room.
I can't tell you what he done to me,
He said he'd kill me if I told anybody,
He said I had been bad,
That I was a mistake,
That I didn't belong.
I don't understand what I've done wrong diary,
I stay out of his way, I barely make a sound,
Yet somehow, he always manages to find me.
I'm so confused diary,
Why does he treat me this way?
I try to make myself clean and wash off the dirt,
I sometimes have to scrub till I bleed,
But I still feel all dirty all over,
And I guess, people at school think I'm dirty too...
Diary, I have to go, I hear somebody creeping up the stairs,
Maybe if I pretend I'm sleeping they'll leave me alone?..