Awaiting Death

Its to late to turn back
I have already swallowed them
Will these be my final words
Or will I live to see another day

I don't know which way fate will turn
But I do know whatever happens is right
No one knows me
No one understands

My parents don't see it
My friends oblivious
My teachers see me crying
Do any take a look at the girl hiding behind the mask

I don't know how long it'll take
Maybe it wont even happen
I lost count after 20
I'm not even scared

Theres 3 more left in the bottle
I don't know what to do
Waiting for a black hole to swallow me
seems like an eternity

I'm sure my friend is worried about me
I left her a little note
I'm not joking around this time
I didn't stop myself

It's so true
So real
I'm so sorry but I can't do this anymore
I sit waiting for my life to vanish

I seem to be falling slowly into nothing
Everything I love vanishes
Everything I care about withers
Whats left for me in the world of despair

This could very well be my last poem
But in the end fate will decide
I wanted to write one last time
Before I go to die.